I am alive....really not sure *** is wrong with me....got some kinda holiday blues I can't seem to shake....
Well TBH I just really wish the "F" that my mom was here, that I hadn't killed so many people, I made better choices in life....I quit hurting the ones I love the most.....for the last 3 days I have just been so "lost" and I really, really don't know what to do or even how to find my way back...and what hurts the most is this just happened for NO reason I can think of......I was feeling fine, then the next day I woke up and just could not function. Not even sure who or how to ask for help.....especially since I can't even explain it to myself?