Jericho said:I have noticed that I dont dream or remember dreaming any more. If I dont smoke for a couple of days then I remember my dreams but if I smoke I dont.
Does anyone have the same experience? Found it rather odd.
lol we kinda dream alike. have you ever been smothered by whales lolOGKushman said:I dream of murder and car racing, being shot by automatic weapons and crashing a fast car, falling off a truck, jumping off a bridge with no bungee into water, flying on a boogie board?! of all things, being eaten by a 6ft rat, I fall a lot - like off the plane of earth...its all black down there
Cowboy said:I smoke so that I can do two things.
1. Sleep I hope all night.
2. so that I don't dream.
Here is a recurring nightmare I had for years until I wrote it out. That's when I realized it was real and although not like my nightmare, it was two days of horror.
I know that some of it will be edited, but you still can get the idea of why I smoke.
This happened in Feb. 1966 when I was still a baby at 19.
I am on patrol in the most slimy, **** smelling, and leach infested swap and jungle that only a twisted mind can conjure up.
There is no sun. Just dark shadows and shapes and shads of gray. It is hot and sultry. You can smell the vegetation and blotted carcasses of the dead rotting all around you.
I am leading my squad of twelve marines across an open area of mud and slime that is holding on to our feet, sucking us down to the bowels of hell. We struggle across the swampy area towards a tree line. Sweat pouring off of us struggling for air as we inch towards the tree line, and ******* it, just as we reach dry ground the tree line explodes in our faces.
We are in an ambush, NVA(North Vietnamese Army) out in the open shooting and killing us like fish in a barrel.
We are all firing back, scoring hits, you can see the bullets striking them, but they dont go down and die. They just keep firing on us.
We try to move to cover while we return fire and as I am covering for my men I shot one in the face and see it explode in a mass of blood, flesh and bone and he dies instantly.
I start screaming to what is left of my squad to shot them in the face shot them in the face, but no one hears me.
As I keep pushing for cover I see my men falling in the mud, blood gushing from their open wounds, guts spilling into the quagmire that we cant escape staining the earth crimson red where they die. I try to kill my enemy and get my men to safety but it is more then I can do. I keep moving to cover killing the NVA as they cross the swampy ground we wear just struggling on with the greatest of ease.
All my men are dead. Men? Boys really, They wear only eighteen and nineteen years old.
I have killed all of the NVA but one, and when I pull the trigger instead of the blast and roar of a round going off, it is just a click, my rifle is empty.
I am diving behind a large rotting log looking from my back up piece, the NVA soldier is right behind me, diving after me as I jump behind the log. I cant find it; my pistol is lost in the mud. I am frantically running my hands though the shity mud looking for it as the soldier falls on me.
No air, I am sweating as if a river of water was flowing from my body, I am screaming in terror, I am grabbing and punching and fighting for my life.
I come bolt up straight in my bed, its four a.m. time for the last watch. My bed is soaked in sweat, like some one poured a big bucket of water on it. I check the perimeter of my home, good no NVA. I have a dog and I trust him, but you never know, he might be asleep on the job. A dog is a good excuse to go out and check the lines at four a.m. the cops look at you and think poor *******, has to walk the dog.
And so it goes, the nightmare, some nights it is there some nights not. Where does it come from? From being a witness to life and death, to being in a war and seeing people and friends die and wondering forty years later, why are you still here?
Sometimes when I am doing last watch I wonder what other veterans of combat dream about and how often? Is it like me, six eight times a year? More? Less? How do they deal with it? Not easy questions.
What I do hope for, as a combat vet, is that we can find peace in our selves and a balance in our lives and that we dont have so many nightmares.
leafminer said:It's true. I know exactly what you mean. When I am not smoking I dream vividly and often remember and can sometimes interpret my dreams. When I smoke . . . no. I don't recall dreaming.
Only when I'm not watching a black and white TV in the dream.ozzydiodude said:Hey Stoney at your advance age do you get to dream in color?
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