Gman, same here not logging out. Has nothing to do with it.
More rain today. Apparently I am in a mood today.
My growing has always been my way of treating my epilepsy, well smoking cannabis in general. My motivation has always been to have weed to smoke and not much more. It goes back to when the industry as a whole was illegal and much of the weed on the East coast was still very much imported. There were always dry spells and weed would get scarce. I started growing as a way to circumvent the dry spells and perhaps a better strain than I was buying. The actual idea of growing a strain I liked. It was an interesting idea. It was also an idea that could land you in jail for a long time. The internet didn't exist and information was spotty at best. I would routinely smoke my homegrown with friends and didn't say anything about my weed. I started getting requests to pick some up for friends and family. Fast forward years later, the internet and weed growing sites come into my life. I share my experiences and learn even more. The friends and family circle has gotten bigger. Marriage, divorce, the kids grow up. Even with a small following, main focus is still my epilepsy and my meds. Living in a Draconian state and LEO for neighbors keep it a small grow, but times have changed and smoking weed and growing are becoming socially acceptable. Internet explodes with sites and weed is everywhere. Better and better strains are coming on the market. I continue to grow and post stuff on line.
In 2009 I go to Cali to meet NCH and the effen gee. Smokin Mom and another member from UK also went. It was 4/20 that we went for. We were all from very restrictive places and Cali was an open door. NCH told us how Cali had decriminalized possession of weed and if we got caught smoking weed, it was $100 fine and he would pay it for anyone. We all showed up and had a blast.
It was the first time I ever walked into someone's house and smelled burning cannabis, lol. I was always afraid to smoke in my living room with LEO neighbors, so I would smoke in my bathroom, standing on the toilet and blowing the smoke into the exhaust fan. Eventually, I felt safe enough to smoke in my bedroom on the second floor. After my trip to Cali, I always longed for when I wouldn't have to hide smoking weed. The opportunity to move to Cali comes my way and all I can think about is, if I were to be allowed to grow that I could do all the things I read about on the internet, lol. I move and it takes nearly a year to get up and running. NCH helped with everything. 1st crop I was overwhelmed by bugs I had never seen before, then mold. Again I had never seen these issues in my 4x4 tent in my basement out East. I got better at dealing with the problems. Not an expert, but better than before. Next crop, again better than before. At this point, I think things are going well. I think the weed looks and tastes great, but dispensaries are kind of iffy about my stuff. I keep at it and get better at dealing with bugs and molds. Biggest problem seemed to be smell. It smelled ok, it just didn't smack you in the face. A large part was, I was unknown and weed didn't jump out to get your attention. I tried to find the problem and sought help from NCH. He got busy building his brand and my problem isn't as simple as add this or do that. Clearly there is still something that it lacks. Outside of Cali, I seem to do quite well and folks are super happy. But here in Cali, mostly they snub me and just go to another grower. At first it was the bugs and molds. Then it was more about drying it too fast. Back in NJ, I would put dried weed in a jar and burb it until it fully dried and cured. It worked. Out here I grew much more weed and that process didn't work. I got better, maybe not all of it but better. I used professional trimmers and it looked good to me. But again more respect outside Cali than in Cali. I am still at this stand still in growing. A plateau that keeps me from being even better. I don't know what I'm missing, and with the way the industry is going I may never know. I have a job I like that pays my bills and more weed than I can smoke, so if I don't become the next new brand I am ok with it. I'm getting closer to retirement and Cali is a bit expensive for me to retire here. Maybe with some additional income from weed could make up the difference, but my weed is not in high demand here so not much help, lol. I don't see my oldest son very much, as he lives in NC. I am interested in being a part of my children's' lives and NC is affordable enough retiring there makes more sense. After living in Cali, moving to a restrictive state is going to be hard. I don't see a commercial grow in my future in NC or anywhere, but I do see me continuing to grow and breed to please me … since that was what it was all about anyway. I see myself as a member here who got as far they could at growing with the normal stuff. I've come pretty far and I'm pretty close, but I'd rather please myself than kill myself trying please others.