Island Of Misfits

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Hi fellow misfits. I took a break. I have been through some kind of catharsis. I have been working on myself for quite some time. Results are finally coming to fruition. I had to let go of baggage, loss, animosity. I relived my whole life in my mind, replaying it over and over and then released that which was holding me back.

Now comes the dilemma--how to refill, replace with peace and joy, not letting go of all angst, because I believe I need that as a reference point.

I really respect my friends here. I believe y'all are truth tellers.
 
what you seek comes from within...what you hold on to may be what is dragging you backwards in life...my life was turned on it's head 10 years ago and I'm still trying to sort it out...I wish you the strength to follow the path to peace and sanity...
 
what you seek comes from within...what you hold on to may be what is dragging you backwards in life...my life was turned on it's head 10 years ago and I'm still trying to sort it out...I wish you the strength to follow the path to peace and sanity...
I have always maintained sanity. It is self esteem that has left me bereft time and time again in my lifetime. After losing my soulmate of 41 years of optimal personal development, I nosedived. Six years out, with intensive work on myself, here I am. I did the hard work, no help from any therapist. I was on lexapro and ambien for a couple of years. Did a hard withdrawal from both.

Thank you for responding kindly, @boo.
 
what you seek comes from within...what you hold on to may be what is dragging you backwards in life...my life was turned on it's head 10 years ago and I'm still trying to sort it out...I wish you the strength to follow the path to peace and sanity...
I am sorry you lost your soulmate. However long grief takes, it is your personal trip. I have had to distance myself from three sisters who would say things to me such as:

Are you back to your old self yet?

Oh, you and Al must not not have prepared emotionally for his death.

Oh, you must have complicated grief. You need counseling.
 
Just shopped at Walmart today, Mt. Dora, FL, for the first time in a few years. It was unrecognizable. Whole groups of food completely gone from inventory-- frozen seafood, frozen pizza and other missing foods.

In the pharmacy isles, huge gaps in product availability. In hair care, a scarcity of products.

It was depressing.
 
Hi fellow misfits. I took a break. I have been through some kind of catharsis. I have been working on myself for quite some time. Results are finally coming to fruition. I had to let go of baggage, loss, animosity. I relived my whole life in my mind, replaying it over and over and then released that which was holding me back.

Now comes the dilemma--how to refill, replace with peace and joy, not letting go of all angst, because I believe I need that as a reference point.

I really respect my friends here. I believe y'all are truth tellers.
Welcome back Shiloh!

I started off rough in life, but it has been a number of years since I had to sort my life out. In a nut shell, learning to be-here-now played a big part.

I got there through meditating twenty minutes twice a day for a couple of decades. I started with Transcendental Meditation and switched to Za Zen after a couple of years.

I highly recommend it for quieting your mind.

I also sought professional help, and he helped me by noting that I was holding on to deep pools of anger and recommending that I exercise the major muscles in my body to burn off the energy, which helped a lot.

No magic, just a commitment to regular meditation and hard physical exercise to burn off the angst. I picked fencing and martial arts, because they were also fun, so I stayed with it.
 
More rain here starting at 35F. Hugz all around!
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Grayfox had one of her preliminary doctor appointments getting set up for her knee replacement surgery later this month.

A visit with an 84 yr old friend (for 52 yrs) on his death bed and suffering all the indignities. He was unconscious the whole time, so we will go back to day to try and say our goodbyes. A brilliant mind who designed and built all my automated equipment circuit boards and got the chips programmed for me by a leading world professional. Alas, his older wife is also in bad shape, so will have to seek help to live without his physical support. Fortunately, he built a sizable nest egg, so he has covered her financial needs and they have three children able to step up to the plate.

Another session with my webmaster sorting out GWL, after I individually searched for 549 photos, finding about 90%. He will try to reinsert them or at least tell me which article they came from so that I can. We will have to come up with another plan for the balance.............................

An empty calendar today, except for our hospice visit with Bob, so looking forward to trying some sample RICE oil gifted to me, followed by debauchery. Rice oil is Refined Isopropyl Cannabis Extract, where an Isopropyl extract is further refined to remove non target elements and the residual Isopropyl, which tests at 80% cannabinoids. In this case CBD oil from hemp.
 
Hi fellow misfits. I took a break. I have been through some kind of catharsis. I have been working on myself for quite some time. Results are finally coming to fruition. I had to let go of baggage, loss, animosity. I relived my whole life in my mind, replaying it over and over and then released that which was holding me back.

Now comes the dilemma--how to refill, replace with peace and joy, not letting go of all angst, because I believe I need that as a reference point.

I really respect my friends here. I believe y'all are truth tellers.
Hi Shiloh!
 

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