When I am not smoking, I tend to internalize everything, and my upper back and shoulders are always riddled with stress. It's funny, a few minutes after I smoke I feel all that tension just disappear. I am able to fully relax. I am not as uptight.
I know about depression/anxiety all too well, and I was medicated for that for years. In Jan I stopped, and I feel sooo much better now. I think the meds were surpressing me and my emotions. Now that I've been med-free, I am full of all sorts of feelings and it is AWESOME!
I thought the anxiety was trying to creep in again when I was sick and unable to get to the gym for a week. But a few hits from my pipe would always help and things would all be right again.
I now realize that not only is MJ key to my well-being, I have to pair it with exercise as well.
Who woulda thought that I'd actually become healthier???
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On a side note, I feel for all the insomniacs here. I actually have a condition called obstructive sleep apnea, so my butts asleep almost as soon as my head hits the pillow. But I wake soo many times during the course of a night, that I never fully get a good 8 hrs rest. Luckily I am unaware when I wake cuz I don't come to full arousel, and I'll just be a bit groggy the next day.