oleflowerman said:
Wow JDude that's coolness.....finish the grow and retire from growing THAT particular crop.......trust the woman......risk bearing your heart and soul.....over and over and over....because you believe she is that Special.
Good.
ANY RED FLAGS with this woman ...at all so far. Now be honest ! Denying is lying
Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always find a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet.
The ole plato dude spouted that one.
Ha LOL... he also said "Go ahead and marry..if you get a good wife you'll be fine and if you don't you'll become a Philosopher....
I have two ex wives...thus the philosophical bentness plus I Just gotta find the rest of my truth, you know what i mean ?.
Ya know my magical Queen is coming soon. It's been over 2 and half years since I was last romanticly involved. Wooww. Long time.
So remember JDude.....she's SO fine brother
Peace&Love
Paul
Hey Oleflower Dude. I appreciate the kind words & concern.
Nooo. No red flags so far. When I first started corresponding with anyone on e-Harmony, I asked the $64 dollar question as soon as I got to the free format part. "Do you have a problem with recreational marijuana use?" Got a LOT of yeses & closed Matches. But, I figured why waste both of our times. I'm not gonna quit smoking. It's tooo much a part of me.
She said she did in her 20s, didn't now, but was willing to be open-minded about it as long as i was willing to compromise on my end. Like my not smoking before I go to see her. Fair enough.
Well, when we got to the intimate point, we were at a local Motel near her and she blazed up with me. That helped make my mind up. She was quite, errrrrr, shall we say, ?inspired? LOL, by the weed.
PLUS, when I presented this to her, the first thing I told her was that I had something to tell her about that required ablsolute trust in her AND that SHE was going to be the one to make a choice and I would abide by it. I tried not to paint her into a corner. When I was done explaining, her concern was that I wasn't dealing, which I don't. EVER!
I feel that by telling her I would get rid of them is she objected to being at my place with them there (although the investment in time & money would have killed me), I gave her an 'out'. So, she was fine with this.
She actually thought they were nice looking and complimented me on my growing skills. She smoked a bowl with me afterward. I think it enhances her 'romantic' mood (not that she needs much enhancement LOL). This is a woman who told me her libido was ten times higher than when she was younger. I feel like the luckiest guy in the world!!!
And I dig about you finding your 'truth'. Mine was that I was tired of being lonely and alone more than I wanted my 'independence' Of course, 17 wasted years of eating & boozing and being grossly overweight helps with that attitude.
I hope that when you're ready, you find the woman of your dreams.
The following are the lyrics to a Neil Young song, called "Will To Love" thats' been a special 'theme' song of mine for over 20 years.
Will To Love
It has often been my dream
To live with one who wasn't there
Like an ocean fish who swam upstream
Through nets, spiral hooks, and hungry bears.
When the water grew less deep
My fins were aching from the strain
I'm swimming in my sleep
I know I can't go back again.
Go back.
Got the will to love,
the will to love.
I'll never lose it,
never lose the will to love,
Never lose the will.
It's like something from up above.
I'm not gonna lose the will to love.
I can be like a fire in the night
Always warm and giving off light
But there comes a time when I shine too bright
Oh oh oh, I'm just a fire in the night.
And now my fins are in the air
And my belly's scraping on the rocks
I still think someone really cares
And I'll keep swimming till I stop.
Got the will to love,
the will to love.
I'll never lose it,
never lose the will to love,
Never lose the will.
It's like something from up above.
And like a singer on the stage
With the golden lights and liquid rage
Dancin' mountains to the sea
Cool running love keeps cleansing me.
It keeps my gills from getting dry
But it distorts things in my eyes
Sometimes I see what really isn't there
Like my true lover,
and I care.
Got the will to love,
the will to love.
I'll never lose it,
never lose the will to love,
Never lose the wi ll.
It's like something from up above.
Sometimes I ramble on and on
And I repeat myself to all my friends are gone
And get lost in snow and drown in rain
And never feel the same again.
I remember the ocean from where I came
Just one of millions all the same
But somewhere someone calls my name
And I'm the harpoon dodger,
and I can't, or won't be tamed.
No.
Got the will to love,
the will to love.
I'll never lose it,
never lose the will to love,
Never lose the will.
It's like something from up above.
Baby, if I see boredom in your eyes
I'll know my river has run dry
But I won't turn back with that lonely tide
I bought that ticket and I'll take that ride.
If we meet along the way
Please stay beside me, let us sway together
Our tails together and our fins in line
We'll leave this water and let our scales shine
In the sun above and the sky below
So all the water and earth will know
It has often been my dream
To live with one
who wasn't there
